Over 1 year....

Assalamualaikum,

It has been over one year now since my last post. Okay, at that time I was still in Pohang, Korea in my study period. Around the same month, I had my miscarriage for my first pregnancy. Well, everything is arranged in Allah's hand and I accept that patiently. Only my husband knew about the pregnancy and we just kept it out from our family. But, we told them about the sad news and everyone just keep calming me after that. So, here come Hari Raya on that year (2015) and I went back home (of course! never missed that event). I took quite a long vacation since we had a feast of sister-in-law's wedding. Then, during kenduri at pihak lelaki in Perlis, we had another surprise which is my second pregnancy. Followed by all the 'loya' and nausea and everything. So, I extended my vacation until beginning of September, after I feel a little bit relieved and calmed. Just few days on my returning to Pohang, I made my mind to wrap up my work and finish my study. Well, I had all requirement fulfilled after my paper been accepted on June. So, Grandpa agreed, and all the work had been focused to make a good thesis. I put aside my second manuscript for a while and focused on current goal. Then, the big day is coming on October during Grandpa's visit in Pohang. I did my very best and he just satisfied well with my work. Honestly, one or some of the thesis committee member were not satisfied but they just agree with Grandpa and want to let me finish my study there. From the beginning this two 'parties' (Grandpa and some people) were not in agreement with my work, however, since Grandpa is my supervisor, advisor, friend, and etc; so there are willing to agree for my work. And I do have a paper! Does it mean something, guys? During that time, I feel relieved and happy with my viva, but stress with unsatisfied work to some people...

So that is that. I made the corrections and prepare the hardcover and submit in December. Then, before I finish, I took an opportunity to present a paper in France in November and I went with my husband (because already 5 months pregnancy). So the trip extends to UK, and we stop at Liverpool to a friend's house and to Manchester to attend a match (Manchester United! so it was arranged and supported by my hubby). By 29 December, I took my flight to home sweet home....for good! I report to work duty on beginning of January and now I am officially worker in UKM. I had my chance to give lectures in that coming semester and I had my maternity leave starting 11th April 2016. I will story about it later.

Till then, Eid Mubarak!

10 months

Last entry i was in Richland for some training. Now I still far with my beloved people because I am in Korea. but to be honest its nothing I am doing besides study for my qualification exam.yup! I really just study without doing any research work. I am feeling lost about this though. Everyday when I went to lab I just regret that I didn't do anything in lab. but I really don't know what to do next for my research. Besides I got comments for my manuscript and it's still stuck on my desk. I already consult with my advisor and his advised was, "Identified your problem and try to solve one at a time. Give yourself good rest.". The thing is I cannot do one at a time. My exam is in December. Is it okay to hold until that to correct my manuscript? Is it okay to hold until that to start to think again about research proposal? If I want to graduate early I have to manage to do many work in a time. I give that pressure to myself. So I kept thinking about that. Besides, I kept forcing myself to study everyday even the least I always do is during night time after I forced myself since morning.aaah!!.it is so stressed!! Sometimes I think that I am so dumb to fail QE twice and bcos of that I am holding my research proposal 1 semester more. Means more time here...I really want to go as soon as possible. I don't know if any other living soul can be in my shoes right now and go through my life here. Truthfully this is my life and no one can have the same story as mine so I am grateful to Allah with my story, for all the tests, bitter and sweet memory ♥. Semua yang terjadi ada hikmahnya...iAllah..segala yg terbaik hanya dari Allah..

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Today's post bukan nak sedey2 tapi kita nak happy2..coz finally saya dah abes Ijazah Sarjana Sains (S**** N******) hehe..saja nak rahsia major course aku..malu la katakan..but i'm not shy to say " I'am graduating this year, successfully!" Alhamdulilah dengan keizinan yang diberikanNya, abes jugak aku study setelah 2 tahun setengah bertungkus lumus manakal lagi setengah tahun menunggu dengan debaran untuk viva (pembentangan lisan).actually, 16 jun yang lalu, tapi aku malas sket nak menulis..hehe

Yeay! Terima kasih yang tak dapat aku ucapkan buat abahanda dan maknda yang terchenta di kampung sana. berkat doa dan sokongan kalian dapat anakanda abeskan belajar di sini..doakan dapat keja pulak ye..nak balik kampung bawak keta sendiri pulak..hehe..kawen? ada sapa2 tanya ke? ops! salah dengar..hehe..ok la..adios..nak buat pembetulan tesis pulak sekarang..tapi, bukan sekarang, later la..sekarang kan waktu keja..hehe..till then, daaaaaaaaaa~~~