10 months

Last entry i was in Richland for some training. Now I still far with my beloved people because I am in Korea. but to be honest its nothing I am doing besides study for my qualification exam.yup! I really just study without doing any research work. I am feeling lost about this though. Everyday when I went to lab I just regret that I didn't do anything in lab. but I really don't know what to do next for my research. Besides I got comments for my manuscript and it's still stuck on my desk. I already consult with my advisor and his advised was, "Identified your problem and try to solve one at a time. Give yourself good rest.". The thing is I cannot do one at a time. My exam is in December. Is it okay to hold until that to correct my manuscript? Is it okay to hold until that to start to think again about research proposal? If I want to graduate early I have to manage to do many work in a time. I give that pressure to myself. So I kept thinking about that. Besides, I kept forcing myself to study everyday even the least I always do is during night time after I forced myself since morning.aaah!!.it is so stressed!! Sometimes I think that I am so dumb to fail QE twice and bcos of that I am holding my research proposal 1 semester more. Means more time here...I really want to go as soon as possible. I don't know if any other living soul can be in my shoes right now and go through my life here. Truthfully this is my life and no one can have the same story as mine so I am grateful to Allah with my story, for all the tests, bitter and sweet memory ♥. Semua yang terjadi ada hikmahnya...iAllah..segala yg terbaik hanya dari Allah..